right ok
ive come to the conclusion that ive hit a little problem in my life,
ive been planing for like 3 years now to move to america to get a free start at life and anyone is welcome to join me but like if i move to america after college which is soon im afraid im going to lose the biggest infulence of my life with is my friends : its not a very happy thing to think about their with me like 24/7 and i wish they'd all come with me to escape this sh*t hole but =/
ahh well i guess this could be the last real year im with them =
i hope not (yn)
Tuesday, 18 November 2008
Monday, 10 November 2008
Sunday, 2 November 2008
photo's
i was tidying my atic today to earn so extra money for town yesterday. When i found a brown box, a big brown box. i didnt think much of it just pushed it aside and carried on with my cleaning.
it was lunch time now so i sat in the atic eating my ham sandwich and taking little sips out of my cup of tea when i noticed the brown box just sitting there.
i thought about it and got curious and went over to look at what was in the box, as i opened the lid to the box i found one of the most treasured things in the world...
photos
not just baby photos everyphoto my parents and grandparents had proberly ever taken from my great grandparents weding to my birth
it was lunch time now so i sat in the atic eating my ham sandwich and taking little sips out of my cup of tea when i noticed the brown box just sitting there.
i thought about it and got curious and went over to look at what was in the box, as i opened the lid to the box i found one of the most treasured things in the world...
photos
not just baby photos everyphoto my parents and grandparents had proberly ever taken from my great grandparents weding to my birth
slowly now i was peaceing my life back together from when my nan and gramps married to when i was born to my first pair of shoes to my fist icecream to my last baby tooth...
i thought about my past and how great it was and how when i met a certain bunch of people who ive mentioned in a pervious blog changed my life and imporved it 100%
i know i say i have had a shit life but when i think about it and look at my big collection of photos my life hasnt been bad atal.. i have pictures of my close family and my lost family :(, but i also have pictures of my outside life family, and all our good times of brynmill park :)... now thinking of that brings a big smile to my face
i dont want to lose what i have but noone lives for ever and so im making the most of what i have, liveing life on the edge... taking pointless photos to reminde me of that day... taking random photos
in hope that one day...
if i get lucky...
and get a wife and kids...
one day my children will stumble on a box and care to take the time out to spend the day on there own without me knowing to look at there old mans life and that although i may force them to do there homework or so be it... i once was cool ...
hope you enjoyed (:
i thought about my past and how great it was and how when i met a certain bunch of people who ive mentioned in a pervious blog changed my life and imporved it 100%
i know i say i have had a shit life but when i think about it and look at my big collection of photos my life hasnt been bad atal.. i have pictures of my close family and my lost family :(, but i also have pictures of my outside life family, and all our good times of brynmill park :)... now thinking of that brings a big smile to my face
i dont want to lose what i have but noone lives for ever and so im making the most of what i have, liveing life on the edge... taking pointless photos to reminde me of that day... taking random photos
in hope that one day...
if i get lucky...
and get a wife and kids...
one day my children will stumble on a box and care to take the time out to spend the day on there own without me knowing to look at there old mans life and that although i may force them to do there homework or so be it... i once was cool ...
hope you enjoyed (:
what a day :|
right im gonna have to make this blog short as ive got like three essays calling me back to work but...
no matter who falls...
as long as there close to my heart...
i will pick them up...
alot of stuff has been happening recently with friends love and family =/
its hard to keep on track with school work and my feelings...
so many people need my help...
and even though i really got to do my school work...
ill still put my friends over everything...
no matter who falls...
as long as there close to my heart...
i will pick them up...
alot of stuff has been happening recently with friends love and family =/
its hard to keep on track with school work and my feelings...
so many people need my help...
and even though i really got to do my school work...
ill still put my friends over everything...
Thursday, 2 October 2008
The day that was cursed from the start
it was a normal day..
till our headmaster told us we had the rest of the day off!!!...
in me and my friends exitment we grabed our bikes, skateboards, blades and decided to go for a trip to mumbles...
we were blessed!... it was the sunnest day ever we were let off school it was perfect!
here is my story up to the faital accedent!
[13:00]- {3 hours till imapct}- we were let off school and went home.
[13:30]- {2 30 hours till impact}- we left our house to start our journey.
[14:00]- {2 hour till impact}- the three cyclist left the ramp for a ride.
[14:15]- {1 and 3/4 of an hour till impact}- at this point the bikes were crusing at speed that were un recorded.
[14:45]- {15 mins till impact}- one of the bikes hears a rattleing from the rear.
[14:50]- {10 mins till impact}- the orange bike of the croup pulls off ahead.
[14:59]- {1 mins till impact}- the bike on the end which had the rattleing makes a violenet jolt to the left and put the front wheel under so much pressure the bike falls with driver and skids.
[15:00]- {imapact time}- as the bike skids on the floor the bike behind it makes a huge reaction to pull the brakes... he failed...
all that as left was a carnage of blood and metal mixed together to make a accedent zone... the boys were dazed.. confused... in great pain.
the first boy who fell got away with a scrap on his arm and a broken bellon his bike
the second boy who fell got away with two sanped bones in his arm and a compleat set of broken brakes on his bike...
lucky escape?...
no one knows what happened that day..
hope you enjoyed
true story...
(:
till our headmaster told us we had the rest of the day off!!!...
in me and my friends exitment we grabed our bikes, skateboards, blades and decided to go for a trip to mumbles...
we were blessed!... it was the sunnest day ever we were let off school it was perfect!
here is my story up to the faital accedent!
[13:00]- {3 hours till imapct}- we were let off school and went home.
[13:30]- {2 30 hours till impact}- we left our house to start our journey.
[14:00]- {2 hour till impact}- the three cyclist left the ramp for a ride.
[14:15]- {1 and 3/4 of an hour till impact}- at this point the bikes were crusing at speed that were un recorded.
[14:45]- {15 mins till impact}- one of the bikes hears a rattleing from the rear.
[14:50]- {10 mins till impact}- the orange bike of the croup pulls off ahead.
[14:59]- {1 mins till impact}- the bike on the end which had the rattleing makes a violenet jolt to the left and put the front wheel under so much pressure the bike falls with driver and skids.
[15:00]- {imapact time}- as the bike skids on the floor the bike behind it makes a huge reaction to pull the brakes... he failed...
all that as left was a carnage of blood and metal mixed together to make a accedent zone... the boys were dazed.. confused... in great pain.
the first boy who fell got away with a scrap on his arm and a broken bellon his bike
the second boy who fell got away with two sanped bones in his arm and a compleat set of broken brakes on his bike...
lucky escape?...
no one knows what happened that day..
hope you enjoyed
true story...
(:
Wednesday, 17 September 2008
the wind
ok this blog is a mixure...
let me explan, i write my blogs about my emotions and moods and how im feeling at that moment in time..
and today im a mixture of happy sad and conused mooods....
confused...
i am confused because theres a perosn who messes me around to much and changes like the wind on second its 'im off now love you xxx' then next its 'im off now, bye' it makes me lost and confused and so i get sad over this and feel down :/
happy...
but its not all bad, when im feeling like this all sad confused and down and group of legends march of the hill every single one fo them men in shining armour with there own little talents to make me feel on top of the world... after talking to these guys my day resumes as normal beeing the 'gobstopper' of the group...
life...
if theres one thing ive learnt from the guys its...
'yes things will get you down in life...'
'yes other people will make you feel invisable...'
but remeber its not your fault?
and then if you realsie that your army will march over the hill and make your day...
'to the brynmill crew...My army...'
let me explan, i write my blogs about my emotions and moods and how im feeling at that moment in time..
and today im a mixture of happy sad and conused mooods....
confused...
i am confused because theres a perosn who messes me around to much and changes like the wind on second its 'im off now love you xxx' then next its 'im off now, bye' it makes me lost and confused and so i get sad over this and feel down :/
happy...
but its not all bad, when im feeling like this all sad confused and down and group of legends march of the hill every single one fo them men in shining armour with there own little talents to make me feel on top of the world... after talking to these guys my day resumes as normal beeing the 'gobstopper' of the group...
life...
if theres one thing ive learnt from the guys its...
'yes things will get you down in life...'
'yes other people will make you feel invisable...'
but remeber its not your fault?
and then if you realsie that your army will march over the hill and make your day...
'to the brynmill crew...My army...'
Tuesday, 9 September 2008
friend housee :)
how to build a friend house...
first you dig a foundation for suport... because friends allways suport you though everything...
next you concreat over the foundation so its strong... because friends are strong and help you though everything...
next you lay the bricks to your house... because every single one of those bricks are secrets that only you and your real friends know...
next you put on a door and lock... because your friends let you in to there life and are there to protect you and make you feel safe...
next you put on your roof... because your friends keep out the rain and thunder storms of your life...
next you add loads of windows... because friends let the light in you life...
next you add the finishing touch and door mat saying 'home is family'... because you home made out of your friends are your family ...
hope you enjoyed...
first you dig a foundation for suport... because friends allways suport you though everything...
next you concreat over the foundation so its strong... because friends are strong and help you though everything...
next you lay the bricks to your house... because every single one of those bricks are secrets that only you and your real friends know...
next you put on a door and lock... because your friends let you in to there life and are there to protect you and make you feel safe...
next you put on your roof... because your friends keep out the rain and thunder storms of your life...
next you add loads of windows... because friends let the light in you life...
next you add the finishing touch and door mat saying 'home is family'... because you home made out of your friends are your family ...
hope you enjoyed...
Saturday, 6 September 2008
the best song ever
now the only reason ive posted the lyrics to this song ....
is because it has a powerful message which i think relates to what i have writen in the past...
(8)
We were born with wings to fly,
But sometimes we can't reach that high,
Cause it feels like the sky is falling down,
Against the odds, against the rain,
You dig your heels in to slow that train,
So many wishes in the lost and found,
One little thing can turn it all around,
Holding on to a dream,
Trying to keep hope alive,
You can reach out to me,
You can reach down deep inside,
When the whole world's gone insane,
A ray of light remains,
The days you know it seems,
Sometimes the hardest thing is Holding on to a dream...
At times you win, at times you lose,
Sometimes life puts a rock in your shoe,
But something in you keeps you walking on,
Leave the fear and doubt in the past,
Just believe, don't look back,
Holding on to a dream,
Trying to keep hope alive,
You can reach out to me,
You can reach down deep inside,
When the whole world's gone insane,
A ray of light remains,
The days you know it seems,
Sometimes the hardest thing is Holding on to a dream...
Feels like an endless fight,
All up hill, but that's all right.....
oh yeahh...
Holding on to a dream,
Trying to keep hope alive,
You can reach out to me,
You can reach down deep inside,
When the whole world's gone insane,
A ray of light remains,
The days you know it seems,
Sometimes the hardest thing is Holding on to a dream...
'hope you enjoyed'
is because it has a powerful message which i think relates to what i have writen in the past...
(8)
We were born with wings to fly,
But sometimes we can't reach that high,
Cause it feels like the sky is falling down,
Against the odds, against the rain,
You dig your heels in to slow that train,
So many wishes in the lost and found,
One little thing can turn it all around,
Holding on to a dream,
Trying to keep hope alive,
You can reach out to me,
You can reach down deep inside,
When the whole world's gone insane,
A ray of light remains,
The days you know it seems,
Sometimes the hardest thing is Holding on to a dream...
At times you win, at times you lose,
Sometimes life puts a rock in your shoe,
But something in you keeps you walking on,
Leave the fear and doubt in the past,
Just believe, don't look back,
Holding on to a dream,
Trying to keep hope alive,
You can reach out to me,
You can reach down deep inside,
When the whole world's gone insane,
A ray of light remains,
The days you know it seems,
Sometimes the hardest thing is Holding on to a dream...
Feels like an endless fight,
All up hill, but that's all right.....
oh yeahh...
Holding on to a dream,
Trying to keep hope alive,
You can reach out to me,
You can reach down deep inside,
When the whole world's gone insane,
A ray of light remains,
The days you know it seems,
Sometimes the hardest thing is Holding on to a dream...
'hope you enjoyed'
Friday, 5 September 2008
lovee
the way i see love for people is...
were are a plane in the sky wanting to land...
and (....) is the run way for us to land...
if we land your in...
and were waiting for her/him to let us land...
and as we wait we are running out of fuel...
(8) somtimes the hardest things are holding on to a dream ... (8)
' song quote'
were are a plane in the sky wanting to land...
and (....) is the run way for us to land...
if we land your in...
and were waiting for her/him to let us land...
and as we wait we are running out of fuel...
(8) somtimes the hardest things are holding on to a dream ... (8)
' song quote'
confustion
getting lost in life...
got no one to turn to for help...
well put it this way...
'were all just lost little dots on the earth, not knowing where to go, where to turn, what path will lead me to sucsses...'
'well look no one has a fixed life, a fixed love, a fixed futur... all we can do is turn the way we want... do what we want... and if you want what you want bad enough then god dam you will get it...'
enjoy... :(
got no one to turn to for help...
well put it this way...
'were all just lost little dots on the earth, not knowing where to go, where to turn, what path will lead me to sucsses...'
'well look no one has a fixed life, a fixed love, a fixed futur... all we can do is turn the way we want... do what we want... and if you want what you want bad enough then god dam you will get it...'
enjoy... :(
Memories, feeling part 2, (with Mcfoof)
feelings,
' i feel small and lost in this world, like one thing comes with big problems...'
"the only way your ever lost if, you cant find your way, not if you cant find people..."
memories,
take a picture, write a diary, leave your self clues, leave trails to follow...
leave anything and everything you can becuase you will look back at them in the futur and will help you bring back the best parts of your life...
(:
' i feel small and lost in this world, like one thing comes with big problems...'
"the only way your ever lost if, you cant find your way, not if you cant find people..."
memories,
take a picture, write a diary, leave your self clues, leave trails to follow...
leave anything and everything you can becuase you will look back at them in the futur and will help you bring back the best parts of your life...
(:
Thursday, 4 September 2008
lemonjadee
Jadee is her name and big brother is her game...
hmm jadee now this girll is right there > (L)
ive known jade for not that long tbh but i happy to have met her i mean 100% greatness right there if you find a better person tell me ...
now jadees not you usual girl no she is the highlight of my life she light but the darkness with her tan and and smile you cant miss a mile off ...
there are two types of girls happy girls who are allways happy no matter what and there are sad girls um.. (emos) and jadee is well o bv none of them xD she is like a bubbly bright girl who i shoudl keep close... (quoated by my dad) and i think i will tbh i love her to bits :)
well untill i get inpired by her again this will have to do
enjoy jade its all true... (:
hmm jadee now this girll is right there > (L)
ive known jade for not that long tbh but i happy to have met her i mean 100% greatness right there if you find a better person tell me ...
now jadees not you usual girl no she is the highlight of my life she light but the darkness with her tan and and smile you cant miss a mile off ...
there are two types of girls happy girls who are allways happy no matter what and there are sad girls um.. (emos) and jadee is well o bv none of them xD she is like a bubbly bright girl who i shoudl keep close... (quoated by my dad) and i think i will tbh i love her to bits :)
well untill i get inpired by her again this will have to do
enjoy jade its all true... (:
An Old Saying
old saying i heard...
and i liked it (:
hope or dreams is a bird with wings, a head, a body, but no legs...
what does that mean ...
hope flys in the air so you can see it but you cant reach it and will never land becasue it has no legs ...
but what goes up must come down so just hang in there (: ..
and i liked it (:
hope or dreams is a bird with wings, a head, a body, but no legs...
what does that mean ...
hope flys in the air so you can see it but you cant reach it and will never land becasue it has no legs ...
but what goes up must come down so just hang in there (: ..
'The Three'
ok this is about the three main girls in my life...
ceri,
georgie,
bronniee...
ok then this blog is a personal blog and randoms wont find this very fun to read but get over it im writing it so (:
ceri.. ok ceri is only the most amazing person in the world she is my sister because of the following ... i love her like a sister she love me like a brother, so do the maths.. she talks to me even if she really cba or is busy and when i talk to ceri i feel 100% love coming to me and 100% focus on what im saying... ceri is so special to me i mean she has got a a place in my heart no questions asked. Ceri is the first part to making me... Ceri is there when im down and is the only one how can help me with my love life problems becuase she understands me like a book with the words writen all over my face... ceri is so special to me and always will be no matter what happens later on in life if i move or die or anything ceri is (L) Xx
georgie.. right georgie, georgie is not just a close friend to me but its a close friend to everyone and is loved by everyone she is in the middle never argues never steps out of place ever now georgie managed to get my over her house to paint xD somthing im not that good at so ive been told georgie is the second part to compleating me part number 2 of 3 and is allways in my heart... just like ceri georgie also helps me with some parts of my love life becuase she is just up straight with you no messing around and help me and ...... thoguh alot and hopefully she will help us though whats coming up (L)Xx
bronniee... right then bron is a lucky girl because she had me in her kitchen half naked cooking carrot, and shes got pictures, bronn helps me with family becuase she is the only one who understands about family problems and mums and dads beening well ... parents and damm anoying she is the third part to my life part 3of 3 and is very close to me mainly because she is my mum i know its getting confusing for you but shh bronns my mother and i love her just like a mother becuase... um i do xD (L)Xx
these are my three girls and they put the '3' in 133 :)
ceri,
georgie,
bronniee...
ok then this blog is a personal blog and randoms wont find this very fun to read but get over it im writing it so (:
ceri.. ok ceri is only the most amazing person in the world she is my sister because of the following ... i love her like a sister she love me like a brother, so do the maths.. she talks to me even if she really cba or is busy and when i talk to ceri i feel 100% love coming to me and 100% focus on what im saying... ceri is so special to me i mean she has got a a place in my heart no questions asked. Ceri is the first part to making me... Ceri is there when im down and is the only one how can help me with my love life problems becuase she understands me like a book with the words writen all over my face... ceri is so special to me and always will be no matter what happens later on in life if i move or die or anything ceri is (L) Xx
georgie.. right georgie, georgie is not just a close friend to me but its a close friend to everyone and is loved by everyone she is in the middle never argues never steps out of place ever now georgie managed to get my over her house to paint xD somthing im not that good at so ive been told georgie is the second part to compleating me part number 2 of 3 and is allways in my heart... just like ceri georgie also helps me with some parts of my love life becuase she is just up straight with you no messing around and help me and ...... thoguh alot and hopefully she will help us though whats coming up (L)Xx
bronniee... right then bron is a lucky girl because she had me in her kitchen half naked cooking carrot, and shes got pictures, bronn helps me with family becuase she is the only one who understands about family problems and mums and dads beening well ... parents and damm anoying she is the third part to my life part 3of 3 and is very close to me mainly because she is my mum i know its getting confusing for you but shh bronns my mother and i love her just like a mother becuase... um i do xD (L)Xx
these are my three girls and they put the '3' in 133 :)
feelings
Ok then woo this is my second blog im quite chuffed...
this next blog isnt just about my feelings but i hope i hope i hit the nail on the head when i write thisand that weve all felt like this at some point in our lifes unfortuantly...
this is a feeling that you get when there is somone in your life you [b]cannot[/b] get...
:(
this is a real feeling that cannot be tamed or controled and it will make you feel the size of a dot. i know people who have felt this feeling it mulitply's in to a huge depression and it pains to see your closest friends have this feeling hope you will never have it... unfortunatly i have and some of my friends have to...
how to discribe it...
' its like a maze and every conner you turn is a dead end and no matter how rich, popular, sucsessful.. you are you cant escape or buy your way out'
WHY?!
you spend all the time you have in the world asking your self the same question...
'why can she/he love me back like i love them'
its somthing that we would ask quite frequently and will never get the awnser too.. its like the quest where you search for the impossable and you want out...
the worst part...
you though you have hit the worst of them not loving you back but then it hits you even harder its like you about to get hit by a car but the car turns in to a bus...im talking about seeing that person with another person, you feel suicid'll and just wanna be left alone
the lucky ones...
but this blog doesnt aply to all people no becuase most people fall in love with the ones they want and get the 50% back they deserve, or some people manage to tell the person they loves feeling and then a relationship emerges because of this...
'i though i had done that, but in all honisty im getting fooled'....
i hope you enjoyed that blog...!
this next blog isnt just about my feelings but i hope i hope i hit the nail on the head when i write thisand that weve all felt like this at some point in our lifes unfortuantly...
this is a feeling that you get when there is somone in your life you [b]cannot[/b] get...
:(
this is a real feeling that cannot be tamed or controled and it will make you feel the size of a dot. i know people who have felt this feeling it mulitply's in to a huge depression and it pains to see your closest friends have this feeling hope you will never have it... unfortunatly i have and some of my friends have to...
how to discribe it...
' its like a maze and every conner you turn is a dead end and no matter how rich, popular, sucsessful.. you are you cant escape or buy your way out'
WHY?!
you spend all the time you have in the world asking your self the same question...
'why can she/he love me back like i love them'
its somthing that we would ask quite frequently and will never get the awnser too.. its like the quest where you search for the impossable and you want out...
the worst part...
you though you have hit the worst of them not loving you back but then it hits you even harder its like you about to get hit by a car but the car turns in to a bus...im talking about seeing that person with another person, you feel suicid'll and just wanna be left alone
the lucky ones...
but this blog doesnt aply to all people no becuase most people fall in love with the ones they want and get the 50% back they deserve, or some people manage to tell the person they loves feeling and then a relationship emerges because of this...
'i though i had done that, but in all honisty im getting fooled'....
i hope you enjoyed that blog...!
my friends
ok then this blog im writing is about my friends and if you have the pacients and time to read it feel free, Right now fore sive never done this sort of thing properly beo your going to have to
bare with me on this one
ok then i have a numorus number of friends and i have to say to my self that when they were handing out friends i was so lucky in what i got. 'You see there are two types of people in the world there are sheeps and there are goats. now ask you self are you a sheep or a goat' (quoated by shawn clown slipknot) anyway back to my friends yes they are the best in the world ok, lets sum it up what true friends are and see if these guys fit the bill
ok then here we go ..
true friends will not make you come out in the rain but will invite you over...
'tom youll come out today or well kill you, fuck the rain'
true friends will no ask for money but hope you lead it...
'tom buy me some skittles'
true friends will invite you over to sleep if you have no where to sleep...
'sorry carl you cant sleep over so ill sleep in a pourch with you'
true friends will allways be there for you...
tomm: 'jake i want to see you today come out (:'
jakee: 'um yeah maby later'
true friends are camera shy and allways leave you in a photo alone...
'brons filled a wall with our pictures, were far from that, she even has pics of us , in the shower, bath, toilet'
ok then now what true friends will not...
true friends will not get you in trouble...
'oh shit run tom'
true friends will not force you to drink under age...
'no they will encourage you'
true friend will not pass test with you...
'they will fail with you'
true friends are the very people i live my life with and they are the oposite of that list thats why they are so close to me...
You see there are two types of people in the world there are sheeps and there are goats. now ask you self are you a sheep or a goat...
because you can proberly guess what we are
bare with me on this one
ok then i have a numorus number of friends and i have to say to my self that when they were handing out friends i was so lucky in what i got. 'You see there are two types of people in the world there are sheeps and there are goats. now ask you self are you a sheep or a goat' (quoated by shawn clown slipknot) anyway back to my friends yes they are the best in the world ok, lets sum it up what true friends are and see if these guys fit the bill
ok then here we go ..
true friends will not make you come out in the rain but will invite you over...
'tom youll come out today or well kill you, fuck the rain'
true friends will no ask for money but hope you lead it...
'tom buy me some skittles'
true friends will invite you over to sleep if you have no where to sleep...
'sorry carl you cant sleep over so ill sleep in a pourch with you'
true friends will allways be there for you...
tomm: 'jake i want to see you today come out (:'
jakee: 'um yeah maby later'
true friends are camera shy and allways leave you in a photo alone...
'brons filled a wall with our pictures, were far from that, she even has pics of us , in the shower, bath, toilet'
ok then now what true friends will not...
true friends will not get you in trouble...
'oh shit run tom'
true friends will not force you to drink under age...
'no they will encourage you'
true friend will not pass test with you...
'they will fail with you'
true friends are the very people i live my life with and they are the oposite of that list thats why they are so close to me...
You see there are two types of people in the world there are sheeps and there are goats. now ask you self are you a sheep or a goat...
because you can proberly guess what we are
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