right ok
ive come to the conclusion that ive hit a little problem in my life,

ive been planing for like 3 years now to move to america to get a free start at life and anyone is welcome to join me but like if i move to america after college which is soon im afraid im going to lose the biggest infulence of my life with is my friends : its not a very happy thing to think about their with me like 24/7 and i wish they'd all come with me to escape this sh*t hole but =/

ahh well i guess this could be the last real year im with them =

i hope not (yn)

:)

i havnt bloged in a while now :

does this mean that i have ran out of feelings?

..

"there was a time when he was in her name to"

photo's

i was tidying my atic today to earn so extra money for town yesterday. When i found a brown box, a big brown box. i didnt think much of it just pushed it aside and carried on with my cleaning.

it was lunch time now so i sat in the atic eating my ham sandwich and taking little sips out of my cup of tea when i noticed the brown box just sitting there.

i thought about it and got curious and went over to look at what was in the box, as i opened the lid to the box i found one of the most treasured things in the world...

photos

not just baby photos everyphoto my parents and grandparents had proberly ever taken from my great grandparents weding to my birth

slowly now i was peaceing my life back together from when my nan and gramps married to when i was born to my first pair of shoes to my fist icecream to my last baby tooth...

i thought about my past and how great it was and how when i met a certain bunch of people who ive mentioned in a pervious blog changed my life and imporved it 100%

i know i say i have had a shit life but when i think about it and look at my big collection of photos my life hasnt been bad atal.. i have pictures of my close family and my lost family :(, but i also have pictures of my outside life family, and all our good times of brynmill park :)... now thinking of that brings a big smile to my face

i dont want to lose what i have but noone lives for ever and so im making the most of what i have, liveing life on the edge... taking pointless photos to reminde me of that day... taking random photos

in hope that one day...
if i get lucky...
and get a wife and kids...

one day my children will stumble on a box and care to take the time out to spend the day on there own without me knowing to look at there old mans life and that although i may force them to do there homework or so be it... i once was cool ...

hope you enjoyed (:

what a day :|

right im gonna have to make this blog short as ive got like three essays calling me back to work but...

no matter who falls...
as long as there close to my heart...
i will pick them up...


alot of stuff has been happening recently with friends love and family =/

its hard to keep on track with school work and my feelings...

so many people need my help...

and even though i really got to do my school work...

ill still put my friends over everything...